Monday, September 25, 2006

L'italia e fantastica!

I had a wonderful holiday in italy when himself took me over to meet the folks. I managed the heat without succumbing to the aches, I felt awake and 'with it' despite not sleeping very well (though the siesta's may have had something to do with that) but now I'm home..

I dunno, was it the weather, the food, the fact I wasn't in swinton?
Either way, I felt happier and healthier there than I have done in a long time, and this was even during the run up to my period - notoriously the one week a month when himself runs for cover!

I kid you not, it was as though the cfs took a break while I was there.
To be honest though, the way I feel now could be put down to the fact I miscalculated my supplements and ran out with a week to go till I came home, at least now I know the VegEPA make a noticable difference and it's worth me spending the cash on 'em.

Seriously, even with all the exercise I did over there (and amazingly enough, having a siesta every day meant I was only as tired as everyone else and not in any danger of crashing out for a change)
I can't do that here though, I just can't relax enough - over there it was too hot to do anything but sleep, here.. it's too noisy, and I feel guilty for sleeping in the day.

The other strange thing is that the night we got back, I had trouble sleeping because my legs felt wierd - it was like the blood was bubbling up inside them, it actually hurt a little and my circulation has gone to pot again.
I've been unable to sleep properly at all since we got back. I can't get comfortable in bed, I can feel every spring in the mattress, I'm too hot then too cold, every noise wakes me up when I do doze off..
It's driving me nuts.

I keep telling myself that it's not because I've been overdoing it, but a little part of me can't help but wonder. I want to move away from here, I've now seen what a peaceful environment could do for me and Swinton is definitely not a peaceful environment. Screaming neighbours and constant police sirens do not lead to tranquility in your surroundings!

Besides, I want to look out of my window and see trees and flowers instead of gangs of kids.
Also having a little more space would be beneficial, being in each others pockets 24/7 is not healthy. This one bed flat was not designed for a couple.

I think I'll just go off and dream a little about the vatican floor mosaics again - it sure beats my fruitless search for a job.