Saturday, July 23, 2005

Crapness galore

Yup - I think if I ever needed a porn star name, Crapness Galore should fit the bill.

This whole effort of moving house is killing me, Scott came round to the flat yesterday to help with the vast amount of preperation still needed before I can even think of decorating (which I have to do before I can get carpets/ flooring laid, can't move in till that's down) He not only did as much of the hallway as he could, he carried on with the wall scrubbing when I crashed.

When I managed to get up and moving again, we went to B&Q - I'm truly blessed in my friends is all I'll say. He managed to make me feel less embarrassed about the whole passing out thing than I would've been had I been alone. I'm just starting to feel paranoid about going out alone again. It's not good.

Today hasn't helped any. I managed to drag myself to mums for a shower around 12.30, we then walked up to a white goods place Dave knows, that's when I started feeling really bad. Irritable, shaky - I put it down to pms and just begged off doing anything else. Made it to the flat before passing out on the rapidly deflating mattress. 3 hours later I had to ask mum to come round so she could get me a drink - I was burning up and unable to get out of bed. They brought me back here and I've been doing the sleepy thing on and off all night.

This just SUCKS ARSE! I'm NEVER going to get this place ready to move into! I'm just constantly tired, and the more I push myself to do the more tired I feel and the less I manage to do. I HATE THIS!

If I had to have an injection every day for the rest of my life I'd do it if only to get back to normal operating levels again. I've had this headache for 3 days straight, every muscle hurts, I've even had to start using the damned inhaler I was given. I hate those things.

I've also got a medical assessment on Tuesday, I'm not quite sure how I'm getting there yet - if Stef's back I'll ask him (assuming he doesn't need to go into work) if not I'll just have to ask Cheryl or Scott to go with me. Either way - the way I am at the moment I'm damned if I'm going anywhere alone!

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