Monday, May 08, 2006

Life... S'good innit?

I spent most of last night searching for lyrics on the net.

It's good feeling like I have a life again, I've started 2 courses to help further my interest in web design, one that takes up all day tuesday and one that's on a thursday evening, I still have a driving lesson on a monday and wednesday and now I'm looking at jamming with a band on monday evenings.

The only problem is that in doing all this I think I may have bitten off a little more than I can chew. For the first time in a long time I totally passed out in the bath on wednesday and Stef had to call off my driving lesson because he couldn't lift me out of it, I ended up lying there covered in towles for 2 hours - the git even took a pic *grin* men...

I've also had the aches back in full force for the last 2 weeks, my left arm especially is just killing me, I've been having trouble sleeping again and I'm starting to feel constantly tired again, my memory is still swiss cheese - hence the lyric search.

That's stung my pride a little actually - if there's one thing I've never had a problem with it's remembering lyrics, not anymore, now I even feck up 'living on a prayer'!
It's frustrating as hell.

Though I guess it's my own fault, I'm cancelling the wednesday driving lessons so I can fully recharge from a day at college and fridays will probably also be spent just resting. I'm beginning to think my shrink was right and that I should just stick to 2 hrs a week of study (though I'd love to know where you can get a course that offers just that, 4 hrs is the shortest I could find and I'm doing that on a thursday)

It's just that I'm so impatient - I need to get back to work again - my DLA has been taken from me and the appeal went nowhere, there are so many things I want to do and this 'taking it slow' doesn't work for me.

Well, not mentally anyhow.

I just hope that I manage to pass my theory test on friday.

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