Monday, May 23, 2011

Diet really IS important..

For the last few weeks we've strayed badly from the path of healthy eating; Stef delays shopping until we're ending up getting take-out or eating cereal because there's nothing in/ can't be bothered to cook, my birthday came and we were eating the cake and chips/ dip/ processed stuff for days and I've been indulging in a Starbucks chai latte far more often than I should.

We've been eating hotdogs, toast, pasties and the odd healthy tuna pasta salad but my body has definitely noticed the difference. As I write this it's a struggle to find the words, I'm almost falling off the keyboard tray because I've not got the energy to support myself - and I've been in bed practically all morning.

Every day for the past week I've either had to go crash for a couple of hours or just struggled to get up in the first place - and it doesn't help that Thursday I went out with the girls and I've just not bounced back from it like I should.

I know I'll be 'ok' (as ok as it gets with me/cfs) once we get the food back in line - Stef said he's going shopping today and we'll be eating healthy again from now on.. Guess it doesn't help that I'm stressing about my final year project and what it could mean for my grade as the second exam didn't go as well as i'd have hoped - also looking back on the 1st exam perhaps I was a little optimistic because now I don't feel half as confident.

I've still got to get my conference talk sorted along with the slides, I'm worried about not getting the job i've applied for and worried that I will - I just wish I could shut specific parts of my brain off so that I could function without feeling as dead as I do now.

just forcing myself out of bed to get some weetabix for lunch was enough to wipe me out again earlier - but it's better to use my energy getting fuel than to just sit and attempt to follow some rubbish on tv.

Once this damned project is out of the way I can breathe a little easier, the diet will get sorted, I'll start to physically pull through this slump - I just need to remember this next time we slide into the convenience/ lazy food trap. we've wasted double our food budget on eating rubbish and look where it's got me. Stupid stupid stupid!

..and i've not been taking my VegEPA or my supplements - just shows eh?!

From tomorrow, back to the food diary. I want to see this trend continue until the average crash per month is less than 3:

2010 2011
Amount of crashes in January88
Amount of crashes in February99
Amount of crashes in March137
Amount of crashes in April105
Amount of crashes in May1110
Average crash per month:10.27.8

The only crashes I've recorded on here are the 'full day in bed/ incapacitated, no good to anyone' days - the cognitive and half days I didn't bother with as I can still get some things done then (even if it's just doing a load of washing/ sending a few emails or making sure I eat something)

I honestly think May would have been half that figure if I hadn't been so stupid with regards looking after myself - lets face it the month isn't even over yet and I'm almost at the same number of crashes as last year which kills the positive trend I had going.

1 comment:

Bola said...

Hello Vics! Good luck with getting back on your diet track. I've been meaning to contact you for ages. Lots of love and best wishes with school and work.